I have had a few days to think, I tried to contact my brother. He isn’t taking my calls. wish I could say, I was surprised.
I laugh thinking of all the times my mother would say, ” he is dead to me”, for some infraction that he had done. I Think my sister has been “Dead To Her”, the most times. I have only been, “Dead to her”, once before my current Death!
And the all the times I went to my mother, on behalf of my brother, pleading his side and telling her ,” He is your Son!”. She had disowned him and had made it clear with me , because we were living together,” If your brother comes to visit you, He is not welcomed in my apartment.” So when my brother called me and asked to come for a visit, he wanted to tell Mom that his girlfriend was pregnant. He was going to be a father! I made plans with him to come for dinner, then I headed downstairs to talk to my Mother. As soon as I got the words out of my mouth, ” Dwayne was coming for dinner”. She told me that it was my business if I chose to see my brother but he was not welcome in her appartment.
I asked her to sit I had something I needed to discuss with her, she grudgingly sat. “Mom, I need to talk to you,” she started to complain, but I over spoke her complaints and told her why Dwayne was coming. Needless to say ,He is now a God.
So now, I will have no contact with any of my family. I already know that she had told my brother that when she died, he was not to tell me or allow me at services. What she didn’t know was I said I was done with her. I Meant It. I would not seek an invitation. I did not go to my father’s HBO sponsored wake, and I will not attend my mothers.
I am, “OK”, with this.